look into the mirror, did it deliver?
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
how quiet and uncomfortable when i've so much time on hand. its just contradicting. a week or so before i'm complaining, and now i'm feeling almost empty.
i lost tracks of dates.
twice this week of waking up at the wrong side of bed.
i feel least good.
it trigger even the slightest happen. and boy, i'm having sucha heavy head and wanna have a good cry for no apparent reason. i thought i might thrash what i see in the reflection.
do you've those days?
no amt of chanel slapping makes you feel good.
overturning the wardrobe only to find nothing fits.
shunning phone calls and emails.
i dont want holiday seasons;
i dont want year-end;
i dont want to travel with yoo.
quit those askings about what i want,
because that's not what i need.
prolly ben's right, everyone needs some "time-off" from time to time, even one doesnt require it or might not even realise that. its clearly upsetting to find issues surfacing, and to make situation worse, how i'm dealing with it uncool-ly. isnt it totally disgusting to lose the level-head at some point of time? and maybe the returns are too suffocating for one to handle, again, without realising what's evolving and changing in daily lifes (in anyways). his words slapped so hard right across me, and perhaps, selfish crept on me this time round. i'm so fear of misplacing that gleam of something and it might never return. mope around only adds onto the "hallucination" further.
giving the night away to make the day better.